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About Me ✨

Born and raised in Los Angeles, California. Lived part of my life in Guanajuato, Mexico. Married to the love of my life, Hazael, since 2019. Mama to Luca, born still and died due to placental abruption on June 2022. Mama to my rainbow babygirl Evie, who was born September 2023. Grieving the loss of my son and trying to survive the pain by doing the things I love…being a mama, creating makeup and fashion content. I am an Office Assistant at a mental health agency, makeup consultant and wellness advocate.

I’ve been on a journey, since 2020, to remove heavy toxins and chemicals from my every day products like food, makeup, skincare, body care, perfume, laundry, household items, etc. and finding clean swaps to share on my social media! Follow me on Instagram @flashywellness which is where I share my favorite swaps, ways to heal internally, naturally and toxin-free, DIY recipes and so much more!

Lover of all things makeup, skincare and fashion, you can follow me on Instagram @its_anitaslife for affordable and cute outfits, makeup tutorials, my grieving journey and our journey as parents to a child earth-side. I share my life, my struggles and my grief in hopes to help a woman out there not feel alone. I want to give out the love and support I wish I had received with my 2 previous miscarriages. I share awareness on stillbirth, postpartum after infant loss and the messiness that is grieving my first-born @itslucaslight

I share the good, the bad, the ugly and the beautiful of my life 🤍 Join me on this wild journey as I share vulnerable parts of my life, the fun outfits, amazing deals, clean products and ways I’ve been able to learn about my hormones in my fertility journey. 

You are not alone, girlfriend! 

There is space for you here 💕

-Anita 🌻

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She's Here! - Evie's Birth Story ✨

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Back to work…End of Maternity Leave

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Mom guilt…

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